“You Have Sero-Positive Rheumatoid Arthritis….and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Your body is attacking itself. ‘IT’s’ all Auto Immune related. ‘IT’s’ Chronic and there is no cure. All we can do is try to put it in remission.”
“‘IT’s’ Chronic and there is no cure” echoed through my brain. At least ‘IT’ had a name now. Rheumatoid Arthritis… Chronic Fatigue. My mind was reeling. ‘IT’ was real. I wasn’t crazy. Dr. after Dr. couldn’t put their finger on ‘IT’, but “Try this…” or “Eat that…” or “There’s nothing wrong with you that a diet and exercise won’t cure.”. I DID diet. The less I ate, the more I gained. The more I walked, the more I hurt. My hands and fingers ached constantly. A simple squeeze of my hand would send me through the roof in pain and bring tears to my eyes that I tried to hide. My feet hurt and swelled. I bought shoes a size larger than I had ever worn, with memory foam insoles. It helped, but it didn’t fix ‘IT’. If I stood at the sink or the stove for more than just a few minutes at a time, my back and hips would throb. I was exhausted all the time. I would go to bed exhausted, toss and turn trying to find a comfortable position that I could fall asleep in. I would feel my pulse throbbing up and down in my spine. My legs would jerk and kick. I would get up 8 hours later, just as exhausted as when I went to bed. My family and friends just didn’t get ‘IT’. ‘IT’ was taking over my life. Looking back on the months of feeling like I was going crazy, I realize that God was there, guiding every step of my journey the whole way. There is a time and a season, a plan and a purpose for EVERYTHING that we encounter in life. ‘IT’ has opened my eyes to the invisible diseases and the toll that they can take on people’s lives, emotions and families. My heart and soul were suddenly filled with compassion and a need to show others that in allowing God to take control, there is hope. On a path where each one of us is so unique, that the treatments which work for one of us, won’t always work for another, the trial and error method of finding just the right combination can be very taxing and stressful in every aspect of our lives. Stress triggers our immune system to attack harder and it becomes a vicious cycle through which it is very easy to lose sight of God. The purpose of this blog is to share my journey, and how God has Blessed me, and is daily guiding me through this. People who understand ‘IT’, and live with ‘IT’ everyday. I’m not an expert. Nothing I say is to be construed as medical advice in ANY way. My goal is simple. If my ramblings and artwork can encourage you in any way, Praise GOD! I want us to be each others’ prayer warriors as we take this journey together. Thanks for stopping in, and please share this with your friends and family.