….And achey fingers, back and feet. Fall and spring were always my favorite seasons. Bright colored leaves, cool breezes and sweaters usher in my favorite holidays season, Thanksgiving and Christmas. New baby leaves and spring storms carry in the summer season of fresh garden veggies, canning and preserving food for the winter. However, Rheumatoid Arthritis is not only changing my body too quickly to keep up with, but also the way I think, and see the world. It’s drawing me closer to my Creator. I’m more thankful for what I am still able to do. I have to concentrate on THOSE things, rather than dwell on what I have lost.
Some days, my fingers can pick out the piano keys lightly and easily, others, they stumble and fail to create a recognizable melody at all. I can pick up my flute and attempt to play, but my lungs give out, or the dexterity of my fingers is simply not there. My voice crackles and my breath support seem to have gotten up and flown away at times. Praise God, His Word says: “Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all ye lands. Serve the LORD with gladness: come before his presence with singing. Know ye that the LORD he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture. Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name. For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.” Psalm 100:1-5 (KJV) Make a JOYFUL noise. That I can do….professional and polished? Not so much anymore. But I’ll gladly keep giving Him all I have, because it’s really all His to begin with.
The sunshine sure looks warm and inviting today, but the pain in my hands, wrists, feet, ankles and back all scream out a different story. The drop in temperature and the storm front that moved through yesterday evening left a definite mark om the RA for today. It’s a grab the cane and take it where ever I go today, day.
After a little reflection, I think that winter is my new favorite season. Cold days give me an excuse to hibernate indoors, and not feel guilty that I can’t do the outdoor yard and garden work that I used to do. As my body changes, instead of giving up, I learn to fight in new ways. Winter will be a good time to conquer some new gluten free baking techniques. Maybe I will actually pay heed to my food journal and find some new favorite foods to replace the known food triggers to my RA. I like rice…..but I LOVE potatoes. Nightshades….not good for RA. My beloved fried potatoes for breakfast do nasty things to my inflamation levels and pretty much destroy the day. Fried rice for breakfast? Who knew that my hubby would LOVE the idea! 33 years and he still loves a ‘spontaneous’ surprise as he called it.
Challenge time. Reflect on what I have, don’t despair over what I have not. Thank God for every moment and USE it wisely. Remember: REST is a wise use of time. Take care of yourselves!!! If you don’t already keep a food journal, start one.